Both cannot face the day at school, John Paul returns home to find his sisters in wait wanting to know answers.
Craig cries on his mom's shoulder.John Paul finally finishes with Hannah for good leaving both of them devastated.
Hannah: You weren’t at school.
John-Paul: No.
Hannah (trying to keep her emotions at bay): It’s okay. If you’re mad at me, you’ve got every right to be.
John-Paul: Why would I be mad at you?
Hannah: Because I was the one that told everybody! That’s why I had to come here to say I’m sorry!
John-Paul (going over to her): You’re not the one who should be apologising, I am!
Hannah: No! I over-reacted, I shouldn’t have blabbed! I messed everything up and now everyone knows.
John-Paul: That doesn’t matter! I’m just sorry I hurt you. I don’t care about them….
Hannah (grabbing his arm): Well, you should care! Don’t you see? You’re going to get such a hard time and that’s my fault!
John-Paul: It’s not your fault.
Hannah (not listening and gripping his arms as if her life depended on it): I would give everything to have this time yesterday! You know, rewind, do things differently. I’d make sure I didn’t see, I would have to say anything…..John-Paul puts his head in his free hand
John-Paul: And I wouldn’t kiss him, yeah?
Hannah (She starts shaking his arm and grabs his other): Please let’s forget about it! It never even happened! We can go back to the way, the way things were before, if we both want it! It was good, wasn’t it? We were good? This is what you want isn’t it?She puts her hand on his
John-Paul (nodding): Yeah. More than anything. Hannah hugs him.
Later. Hannah and John-Paul are lying on his bed, looking at the ceiling
Hannah: When I was like twelve or something, I got this poster of Darius and put it above my bed so that I could stare at him. I’d fall asleep staring at him.
John-Paul (teasing): Saddo.
Hannah: Why did you kiss him?
John-Paul: I don’t know. I didn’t even think about it. I wanted to.
Hannah (leaning on her elbow): You wanted to more than this? She kisses him which he returns without passion. He suddenly gets up. What are you doing?
John-Paul: This isn’t right.Hannah: But this is what you want, isn’t it? You know, for things to go back the way they were.
John-Paul: How can things go back to the way they were? Hannah, I kissed a guy.
Hannah: No, you were drunk, you don’t know what you were doing. You said so yourself.
John-Paul: I knew what I was doing.
Hannah (shocked): What?
John-Paul: Hannah, please, this has nothing to do with the way I felt, feel about you.
Hannah(crying): I don’t blame you, I mean look at me! Come on I was tupid to ever think that someone like you could ever…..
John-Paul (kneeling in front of her): No, Hannah! Look, this is all my fault alright? Any guy would be lucky to have you! You’re beautiful, you’re smart….
Hannah: Yeah, I repulse you, don’t I? I always have done.
John-Paul: No, Hannah, you’ve got to believe me! This is not about you!
Hannah: You! How can I believe anything you say? You have been lying to me, making a fool out of me for months!
John-Paul: Hannah……She gets up and walks away from him. He puts his head in his hands
Later. Hannah is standing with her back to John-Paul. She is clutching a teddy bear that may have been a Valentines gift to him
.John-Paul: I never lied to you, Hannah. Not intentionally. I wouldn’t hurt you for the world. I never meant for any of this to happen, alright, I didn’t want any of this.
Hannah: What do you want?
John-Paul: I want the same thing everyone else wants. (Hannah moves over to the bed and sits down.) I want good mates, a good laugh, nice girl.
Hannah: You had all of those things. (John-Paul slides down the wall and sits on the floor) You could have all those things again.
John-Paul: No, I can’t because it would be a lie. Don’t you understand? I wish I could love you the way you deserve to be loved.
Hannah: You did love me. You loved me right here on this bed and no matter what you say, that it didn’t mean anything, that I never meant anything to you, I don’t believe you.
John-Paul: I loved you. I love… I still love you. But its not enough.
Hannah (whispering): What do you mean, its not enough?
John-Paul: I kissed Craig because in that moment, right or wrong, I wanted it more than I have ever wanted anything or anybody in my entire life. Do you know what that feels like? I’ve never felt like that before and I can’t go back now.
Hannah: What are you trying to say?John-Paul: Hannah…..Hannah, I’m gay.
They look at each other for a few seconds. There is nothing else to say. Hannah stands up, letting the teddy fall onto the floor and leaves. John-Paul bursts into tears.
(Leaving Sonny Valentine’s house (wearing snowflake) Craig spots John Paul.)
Sarah dumps Craig because she doesn't feel she knows him anymore
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